As you go to heaven, I ask that you wave goodbye. For that peace and comfort makes it no longer about how you died. I ask that you look over me, you watch my every move. For knowing I have someone depending on me I might begin to improve. I ask that the Lord to watch over you and I every day. I ask that he watches over me and reminds me of your love each day. It is in knowing that you are in a better place that I can make better of my embrace. I miss you every day and our reunion seems too far away. I watched your body be laid to rest I felt your last embrace. I told myself this is for the best but now I wish you wouldn't have left.

I know, this moment sounds selfish. As I look through old photos, recite old memories I realize I wasn't ready for reality. The reality that everyone returns to heaven. I wanted to wave to you as I walked across that stage. I wanted you to hold my newly born child and look at me with that certain smile. I planned a wedding with your seat reserved, I wanted you in my life when I hit a curve.

As I grow older without you around I notice a slight frown. As you go to heaven I want you to know I love you, I miss you, the best times I wish you. Do not worry about me, I will be fine. I know you're watching for it's always in my mind. Please continue to look after me and show me a few signs. For the sunset was you, the rainbow was you, and the sunflower was you. I just know you're watching over me each and every day. I can feel you looking down upon me with a smile on your face. As I write this and recite this I know you are listening. Just remember, it is you that I am always missing.