I am going to be honest with everyone. I am struggling. I struggle with self-control, which leads to struggles with pornography, overeating, lack of exercise, and anger. I hate these things, and I do not want to continue living this way. I ask forgiveness from those who I may offend or have offended by my lack of self-control and self-discipline. I know that what I am doing is wrong, and that it is objectifying to women, and it is hurting myself. I make excuses all the time, and I always say I am going to change. The problem is that I never change. I am like a broken record, and I cannot seem to fix it.

So instead, I am starting over. I am asking God to guide me in this new direction, and I will do my best to keep from falling. If I do fall, I will not let it keep me down. I want to stay motivated! I NEED to stay motivated! I pray that I will not be shaken by the ways of this world, and may my heart be cleansed from the dirt in which I have fallen. I will be an example, not for my own glory, but for the glory of God.

I'm sorry that I have let people down. I borrowed without the ability to pay back, I said I would do things and I never did. I know that I have offended people that I barely even talk to, and I am sorry.

This is my declaration of my renewal. I typed it out, and put it online, so I may be held accountable. Please, friends, help me through this, while I try to regain my strength. Iron sharpens iron, right?