My fingertips are the only things gripping the edge of this cliff. I've tried to pull myself up many times, but it just left me weaker. I try to reach for others to help me, but they are too concerned with the view beyond the cliff. It is a very beautiful view, so I can't blame them too much.

Would it be selfish of me to complain? Would it be selfish of me to make others reach over the cliff? What if they fall off because of me? What if they slip? Should I sacrifice my life to let the rest enjoy the view?

I look at some people, making eye contact, and they seem to hope I let go. They think I get in the way of the perfect view. My crying is too loud, and it disturbs their peaceful facade.

Oh, it would be amazing to be able to see the view from their perspective, but when I'm hanging here, barely hanging on, it is too difficult to see anything other than my fingertips. It would be so easy to let go. Nobody even listens anyway, so why do I keep crying!?! Nobody is probably listening to this, even now.

I'm tired of breaking my fingers trying to hold on to this edge. If I fall, then let me go. Or catch me. I might be wrong, but I can't see that anybody really cares. They're just polite, they give a smile, then go on with their lives.

But this is not about me. Why should I be so selfish? I hate that I'm so f***ing selfish!! Maybe it would make other people happier if I wasn't here to drag them down... I'm giving up...