"Why me?"

"I don't even know what I am doing!"

"I'm not even qualified to do this!!"

These are the thoughts that have been plaguing me lately. In the last few weeks, I have been placed in situations that I feel unqualified for. I feel like I am in over my head and have no clue what I am doing. It is very rare for me to feel this way about any situation. I am the type of person who likes to be prepared and know what I am about to face. I usually have about three different ways of how I can go about doing it in case the first one fails. So, to be in a place where I am constantly put in that position frustrates me to no end. No matter what I am doing or what the outcome, I still feel as though I am constantly messing up. I find myself looking to God and asking, "Why would you pick me for this? I'm not this or that. I am just an ordinary person!"

When I was walking home from another surprise filled class, the song "A Strange Way To Save the World" by 4Him, popped into my head, particularly the part where they say,

"Why me, I'm just a simple man of trade.
Why Him, with all the rulers in the world?
Why here inside this stable filled with hay?
Why her, she's just an ordinary girl?"

I know, I know. This is a Christmas song and I am not Jesus, so why am I relating it to myself? Because this song reminded me of God's use of the "ordinary." Joseph was a carpenter and Mary was a virgin who no one had heard of and those were the people God chose to bring the Messiah into the world. Jesus went on to recruit men who fished for a living to follow him and fish for men. He intentionally ate with and healed the people that the world was so apt to hate. The new testament isn't filled with the stories of kings and queens and royal palaces; it's filled with tax collectors and beggars. Those are the people that God spoke to to help spread his word.

So I may be only a student. I may be only a simple girl from the back woods of New York. I may be just the daughter of a preacher who knows a little bit about a little bit, but I am also a child of God. I am one of his "chosen people" (1 Peter 2:9) and I know that no matter where I go and what I do, He will be with me (Joshua 1:9) and that it will all be alright in the end (Romans 8:28).

So stop letting the fear of being ordinary stop you from becoming extraordinary.

1 Peter 2:9 -- "But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God's own possession, so that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light."

Romans 8:28 -- "And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."