I am writing this instead of reading the books I need to read or writing the research paper I need to write or the projects I need to finish. Why? Because like most college students I am a procrastinator. With a million things I need to do within the next week creates a million and two things I do instead.

Besides writing this article, I am messaging friends on Facebook about how hard finals are and listening to a motivational playlist I use to study and do homework towards. The WiFi is off in the dorms so after class I had to camp out in the library. Obviously, not before going to the International Tea event at the Women's Center. Caffeinated plus a sugar rush and the only thing I am doing is writing this article so I can have more time to read the books I probably won't read and write the research paper that probably won't be done until the night before it is due. Not when the research paper is due,May 3rd, I'm talking about when the library books are due, May 5th, because this is finals week so why not!?

Why am I avoiding finals like the plague instead of buckling down and just do the work? Because like all, or most, procrastinators lies a hidden perfectionist that knows it is not good enough. It is a vicious cycle. I know I won't get the perfect grade or score so why should I do my best to fail anyways? I'm not ready for this week and plainly no one ever will be.

After I get done writing this article, finish all the steps, and wait for editors, I will be forced to read Hiroshima and take a practice test for American History class, read and watch as many documentaries as I can for a research paper about World War Two. Then there are 5 art projects and a group project due a day a part.

This semester is actually easier for me in the sense that I only have one exam to take. The exam is for a night class so I will have all day to study. You would think that! Except for one of my classes it is mandatory to clean the room the same day. I have no idea how long it will take us to clean the room because it is more than a throw away and sweep type of cleaning. It's a mopping and washing everything, deep cleaning. but wait a minute... why am I freaking out if it's easier?

Because I have no form of time management so in my head I have everything due at the same time instead of separating everything based on due dates. Another reason why I am freaking out is because once finals are over I have to pack and move out of the dorms and start a full time job. Life is starting too fast for me to grasp what is going on to even try to plan on what I will do once I am finished with school. Will I get an apartment with a friend? Will I live alone? Will I live on my own? Will I stay in Florence? Will I move away? Will I end up as a curator or fast food worker? I constantly have a thousand questions and plans running through my head and it's more of a distraction than procrastination.

Time is an illusion, I'm constantly dizzy, my caffiene/ sugar rush is dying down and now I have on thing done that is due during finals.