It’s 10:30 in the morning as I write this, and I have woken up with a feeling of dullness. Not in a physical sense, but in a way that indicates that my spirit isn’t going to have it today. This, of course, happens from time to time. When these days happen to find me, I have to begin considering why I am still here? Truly, who would care if I left? I know people may, and that these feelings are selfish, but I also know that at times, these emotions are unavoidable and you have to deal with them, despite feeling emotionally dead inside.

This feeling of dullness, emotional deadness if you will, is only stomped out in one way. Not song and dance like "High School Musical" (though I’m sure if you’re talented enough, that may help) but by thinking of the life that lies before me, as well as thinking about my dreams. This last one sounds cheesy, and similar to some shtick you would hear off of Glee. Ryan Murphy should pay me for referencing him, honestly.

Thinking of all the hopes and dreams I’ve had throughout my relatively short life keeps me going. At the age of five, I was set on being a candy maker since I watched too much “Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory”, and I’m quite sure that although I’ve lost any desire whatsoever to pursue this dream, 5 year old Ron would be bummed as heck that I gave up on any of my dreams. I could become a writer or something and if I kill myself I could only be a ghost writer (badumtss).

Following your dreams is a good way to stay focused on anything but death. Think about all of the things you wanted to do before you gave up. Think about what 5 year old you would say if you killed yourself. Would they be happy that you were dead instead of a princess? Absolutely not. You can’t just give up because life currently sucks. You have stuff ahead of you, no matter your age. If you accept defeat, then you don’t win, and it will just be even worse in the end because everyone will know that you just quit and gave up on all of your hopes and dreams. Don’t give up.

When you feel like nothing has a point, think about the next day. You may win the lottery or something. If you die, than that opportunity will be lost to you. Remember what you want to be in the future and keep in mind that if you give up, you’ll never get to be that.