We have all been there. The time when we laid in our beds, all alone, bawling our eyes out because we are disconsolate, weary, and broken. We have pushed ourselves to the point where we held in so much anxiety and disappointment that we could not hold it in any more and erupted into so many emotions that we could not even think straight.
I understand. There have been countless nights this semester where I was bawling my eyes out to my best friend, because I was so depleted from all of the stress that I put myself through. I kept blaming myself for being depressed, because I felt like I could handle the trials that life threw at me better and I was not adding up to everything that was expected out of me. I kept on telling myself that I didn't deserve the loyalty of my best friend, the accomplishments I have made, and the love that God gave me.
We live in a world full of comparison, judgement, runny mascara, broken nails, sleep deprivation, heartbreak, mood swings, growing pains, and so many more struggles that come with being a teenage girl and living life in general. The devil works in cunning ways. He is constantly there reminding us of our imperfections and flaws, leading us to believe that we are not good enough for that guy we like, the college we want to get in to, the team we want to try out for, and the God who rules over the universe. However, the truth is we have a creator who wants to draw so close to us that it takes much more than just a breakup to be tortured by the devil's lies about us. God has such an immense love for you, dear one. He wants to be the one whose feet you fall to when you can't handle the trials life throws at you and is ready to wrap His arms around you and remind you that you are His treasure.
In the midst of life's trials, it can be so hard to trust that God is in control. Worrying about it seems like it will make things better, but Exodus 14:14 says "The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still". God holds you in the palm of his hand. He has paved the way and knows all of your needs and anxieties. Trust him.
God has a plan, you have a purpose, and you are loved so very much by our creator, precious one. It may seem like everything is falling apart, but in reality, you may not see it now, but eventually you will see that God is actually working in your life and everything is falling into place.