Dear God,

I am so broken and distorted. My head is full of doubt and heart is full of hate. I know I believe in you but when I hear false doctrine accepted more than the truth, it gets hard to fight. I contradict myself and my mind is always anxious. God, I do not read your word daily anymore. I'm supposed to be thirty for it, have a hunger for it, but I make excuses instead. Lord, you tell me to be still but I am anxious and wanting. I hear my own mouth cursing far more often than I should. I take your name in vain. God, I am angry that people do not listen to your word but I don't make my life reflect your word. I'm broken, I'm broken.

But still, you lift me up, brush the dirt off, and call me yours. God, I was your enemy and sometimes I still act like it but you love me no matter the case. You sent your perfect son to die for me. Death has been defeated and there is no power greater than you, my God. You sent me off for a dark trail, but you gave me the brightest of lamps. You reserved my spot in paradise, a spot that I can only hope has a constant view of you. God, wreck my life, ruin my plans, destroy my dreams, make my life a life dedicated to you. I am undeserving of your grace but you want to use me. I will never understand that but I will do as you command.

Sincerely,

Your unworthy child