As I sit here and think about the last two years of my relationship that I ended 7 minutes ago, I have a few thoughts I'd like to share with someone other than my mother, therapist, or best friend. Longish term relationship breakups don't always have to suck. Let me give you a back story.

Jason (name changed for privacy) and I met my freshman year of college and started out as friends with benefits. We didn't have the intention of becoming an item until a few months in. Even then, he didn't ask me to be his girlfriend, it was just kind of assumed I was. After about 6 months, we broke up. Can you imagine why? Our entire relationship felt sex-based, loveless. and irritated me to the depths of my soul.

After a three month break, we thought we would try again. This time, we weren't exclusively together and I made the assumption that we weren't. However, he thought we were. So in the meantime, I was seeing another guy that I fell head over heels for. I ended mine and Jason's 'thing' and got together with guy #2, Evan (name changed for privacy). Evan and I lasted about three months before Jason slid back into my DM's saying how much he missed me. Like an idiot and naive nineteen-year-old, I fell for the trap and left Evan to get back with Jason. Jason and I lasted about a month more before we broke it off AGAIN due to the fact that I was leaving the country for 6 months.

After a week of being in the UK, Jason slid back into my Dm's and we started talking again. Every single day we face-timed or he called me and was texting me constantly. We low key declared we were together again and have been since January, so about ten months, the longest relationship streak we've had.

Now we're ten months in and it hasn't been the best ride I've been on. From jealousy to trust issues to insecurities and mental breakdowns that aren't manageable, I finally decided that this is not how I would want to spend the rest of my life. This is not how I want to spend my last year in college. This is not what I want. Though for the last two years, I thought it was.

As I sit here now, feeling like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders, I realize a few things I want to share with you about why this breakup of mine or yours isn't so bad, after all.

Despite the fact that breakups suck and millions of tears are shed, there are things that are so much better that are going to come out of this. I write this article as a reminder to myself and as a fresh perspective or reminder to others who may be going through something similar.