Everybody is afraid of something, right? Well, I am afraid of at least 5 things.

1. Talking to "the girl".

Just approaching her terrifies me. I don't really know if rejection is my fear, but rather, I am afraid of embarrassing myself. What if I say the wrong thing? What if I can't make you laugh? ...What if I never try?

2. Failure.

I am afraid of being in the same situation that I started. I worked really hard and went through a lot of crap to get to where I am, and losing it all from one mistake is something that I can't let happen. This fear sucks because sometimes I make excuses and don't try new things.

3. Losing My Faith.

I have been through a lot. Poverty, custody battles between parents, foster care, etc. I have always kept my faith in God. I fear that one day, I will hit my level and lose everything I believe in. Good thing my faith is not reliant on my strength, but on the strength of God.

4. Success.

Ironic, huh? Although I fear failure, I am terrified of success. I fear that I will let it get to my head. I do not want to be that person I always despised. I don't want to be the one who always had a lot, but was never satisfied. I don't want the chase for success to override the love I have for others or myself.

5. Sharing this...

I don't like showing everyone my issues. I used to be strong... or at least that's what everybody saw. Really I hid my sorrow. I know that if I share my feelings and my problems, then people can hurt me. They can use it to judge me. They can throw it back in my face. But, I know that if I don't share this, it will really be hurting who I am.

Although I have these fears, I know that God is stronger than all of these. I am no longer going to live my life leaning on these fears! Amen!