Holy crap I am getting old. I have been on this earth for two decades now, and I am not getting any younger. The 20th year, huh. It feels so... strange. You are at and in-between age; you're too young to be considered a child, but too young to be able to do anything you want to--I.e. purchase and consume alcohol legally. Since that age is coming up, though, I should probably start acting like an adult more so than I already have. Since I am now a 20-year-old, here are some hopes I have for my 20th year.

1. Go at least one semester without any C's as final grades.

No matter how hard I try, I always end up with one and it is the most irritating thing. Not a huge thing, but makes you feel accomplished.

2. Get rid of the negative people in my life.

For far too long, I have let people walk on and take advantage of me. These people do not benefit me or my life in any way, so it is time to say, "Bye Felicia," regardless of how hard it may be. They are not real friends if they just use you.

3. Talk to/spend more time with my family.

Like most people, when I am at school, I go into my own world. It is like I have a completely different life at school, and I sometimes forget about the people who got me where I am today. If you are reading this, I want to say thank you, and I am sorry.

4. Manage my attitude/temper.

Okay, I am 20. I guess I should stop having little hissy-fits now or catch an attitude when things don't go my way.

5. Go on vacation.

Nothing fancy or big. Just a vacation where I do not have to deal with little annoyances that come with life.

6. Travel more.

My goal is to visit every state in the United States at least once before I die. The list of how many I have been to is currently slacking. Time to make a change and reach that goal.

7. Realize it is okay to put myself before others sometimes.

I do not mean be completely selfish, but maybe have a "me day," where you spend time focusing on yourself and doing what is best for you instead of another person. Happiness is important.

8. Learn how to manage money better.

Why am I always broke? I don't know. Maybe I didn't need that blanket from Walmart because I already have 50.

9. Stop eating junk food in the middle of the night.

Ha. Yeah. This is an issue.

10. Learn to be confident.

Growing up, I have never been fond of how I looked. I cannot change how I look, so time to start flaunting what I have.

11. Actually stick to exercising.

At some point in the year, I always start working out and getting in shape, then I just stop. Silly me. Stop being lazy.

12. Learn to accept/love who I am.

This is me. This is who I am. I have spent way too long beating myself up and asking, "why do I do this"? I should not be asking that anymore. It is who I am. and there is no changing that.

13. Start narrowing down where I want to go for graduate school.

Although I still have two and half years before I graduate with my Bachelors, I should probably start looking into it. It is never too early.

14. Get a tattoo.

For as long as I can remember, I have wanted to get one. It is time to finally do something about instead of just talking about it.

15. Figure out what a normal sleep schedule is.

My entire life, I have had issues with sleeping. I have always been a night owl, and woken up around noon. It is time to change.

16. Realize that the past is the past.

It does not matter how many times you reflect or wish things could change, it won't. Accept it and move on.

17. Learn how to trust people.

When meeting new people, I always try to look for the bad in them, so I do not have to associate with them. It is time to let my guard down... some.

18. Successfully watch a Netflix Original.

Other than "Orange is the New Black," most of their originals are some crap. Time to power through and make it through one.

19. Have a political discussion with someone.

A discussion; not an argument. There is a difference, and this rarely ever happens.

20. Be happy.

Last, but certainly the most important. After a few hard years, being happy is sometimes a difficult thing to do. This year, I plan on focusing on that and making sure I am okay.