They say you have to love yourself in order to love another person. I say screw that. Loving yourself and getting to know yourself is a lot easier with someone else. I’ve found this to be the case with you. Not only am I starting to love myself, but I’m learning how to take care of myself finally.
I’ve also come to realize that the more you share your soul with someone and the more you let people in, the more you give away parts of yourself. It should be that the sharing should be reciprocated, but that’s not always the case. With you, I feel like every part of myself that I’ve lost is finally coming back. Pieces of myself are coming back together and I’m getting a clearer picture of who I was meant to be. Knowing this, I know you will never hurt me, so i’m glad I shared everything with you.
When I first saw you, I knew I could love you. I remember seeing you when we were both training for the same position at work and feeling some sort of connection whenever I talked to you. We were friends first. I think that’s why we’re so happy together, because we took the time to get to know each other. After friend-zoning you to the point where you almost gave up and the months of me letting myself get hurt by absolute jerks, I decided to let you in. I fell in love the minute you told me how special I am. I fell in love with your laugh, eyes, smile, kindness, empathetic nature, honesty, and quite frankly everything that makes you who you are. I also fell in love with your humor, creativity and overall vibe. You’re so special to me. Please know that.
We’ve been through so much in the six months I’ve known you. For example, the fights, the family issues, the drama that should have ended when we graduated from high school but didn’t, the work related messes and so forth. And every time we hit one of those bumps in the road, a piece of me fell harder for you. Because I knew who you were and I saw the faith that we could get through any obstacle in the road along with it. I love you, only you and I can promise you that. In a world where almost everything is temporary, I’ve learned that what you and I have is an exception.
I’m not sure about tomorrow. I’m not sure about next month, next year, the list is endless. There are an unlimited amount of possible outcomes our love may result in. But I know one thing is for sure: I love you and that’s never going to change. No matter what we go through, or where we end up, my heart will always belong with you. I choose to love you every day, and I make sure you understand my love for you and it’s intensity and how much I care and maybe I’m just rambling on but I love you. OK? OK.
Love,
Your girlfriend xo
