It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply. You notice the slightest changes in how your partner behaves and what they say. The way he says your name isn’t the same, the way he looks at you isn’t the same… the love you once felt isn’t the same. Stuck. Confused. Hurt and bruised your heart and ego are on a mend. Where do I begin? How do I begin to pick up the pieces of my hopes, dreams, and aspirations for you and I? For you and I to soar and float through this life unaware of our surroundings… as I am all the scenery, beauty, and escapades you will ever need for the rest of your days… so I prayed. I prayed for you to see me as the woman of your dreams, everything you ever wanted to see and feel... both physically and emotionally I so wanted to be everything you could ever want and need. All the while I was neglecting me. Forgetting to find me in trying to find you. Losing me trying to love you. You were both a blessing and a curse. You blessed me with your light and your ample grin. With so many beautiful conversations I can’t fathom where to begin... You cursed me with your loneliness and dark ways, I tried so hard to shield your heart and give you better days so I stayed… and I prayed. Our romance should’ve danced and twirled for an eternity. I always dreamt of you holding me. We had an exchange of hearts and minds. Plans that should’ve lasted a lifetime. But I believe our time was spent and it was coming to an end.

You were both my blessing and my curse and a little piece of heaven here on earth.