Broken Down To Build Up
I’m not gonna lie to y’all, I’ve been broken down so many times, we have ALL been broken down so many times. I use to think it had something to do with luck and that if that was the case, I was never gonna be able to build myself back up. Every time I thought I was able to get back, I was broken down yet again. The best part is that the lesson I feed off after makes me happy to know that God is watching after me.
I realized that that’s o k a y.
I realized that that’s l i f e.
Took me a long time to realize that though. I would stay up at night and think about what was breaking me but I was doing nothing to fix it but pray that it would get better. I found myself breaking more often than healing but prayer made me feel whole again. But along side prayer, you also have to try and build yourself but too. Focusing on what broke you down will never let you heal properly.
What I found was most helpful was to focus on my end goals. You are going to have so many obstacles in your way and they all have a purpose that you will understand later. Some things that will help you with your end goal would be..
1) Making a list of what you need to do daily. This helps me because I have certain things to look forward to and it keeps me organized. I like putting forth the effort and time to make sure the list looks good too!!
2) I make time for myself. I have nights where I'd rather read and do a face mask and finish my homework. I see self care as being so important because if you can not care for yourself then how can you care for others too?! It's exhausting and physically draining if you don't find a balance.
3) When you can, get ahead on your school work. It makes a worlds difference and it allows you to go out spontaneously!! If you do that, more often than not you will find yourself more relaxed.
Also maybe you are not the one who is experiencing being broken but you might have a close friend that is. Sometimes the best thing to do, that I've learned from experience, is to just listen and understand. Never tell them to get over it or to move on because you don't know who else they have opened up to about this and if you were the only person they did, they will feel let down and like a burden.
Whether or not you needed to see this post or even if you've read it this far, whatever emotion you are feeling right now, we've all felt before. That right there should help you start healing and focusing on yourself and what will help you become a better version of yourself. Now pick yourself back up and find what feels good, its worth it.
