It's 1 a.m. on a Thursday night, and I’m laying in bed thinking about a book. I’m not thinking about drinking, or going out, my problems that I’m obviously trying to avoid, the girl I’d kill to go on a date with, or even what I am doing the next day; I am thinking about a book, and why it’s so nice to get lost in it.
Instead of writing on my laptop because I didn’t want to get up from my bed, I look to the notes in my phone, which, I'll have you know, own a lot of my thoughts and the nearest things to my heart. 100 percent of you people will never see them, and I am perfectly fine with that.
I think I read because the reality in a book is probably a lot better than the reality I am living, and I write because how else am I supposed to deal with what I am thinking? Now, there is nothing wrong with either of these statements, it’s just a form of expressing yourself through a different form of communication.
Nothing changes if nothing changes. I 100 percent think that talking to a therapist or seeing someone who is there to help is one of the best ways to help someone out there. I think that a lot of people think that it’s because something is wrong or that something is wrong between people, but all in all, it’s nice to talk to someone who is there genuinely to listen. They aren’t going to be biased and they aren’t going to think of you differently; granted, it might take a while to find the right one, but it’s possible, and it can happen. Which led me to hear, depression and anxiety and things that most people don’t want to talk about, there’s a lot of different things that someone can do to help whatever it is that they are going through.
Having personal days is one of the absolute best things a person can do for themselves. It’s not just to have a little TLC for you. Go for a walk, ride a bike, work out, just doing something for yourself is so relaxing and needed more than you think. I forget how much the world can be overwhelming and how wonderful it is to just get away sometimes.
So as I started to write this about reading, I think that also reading, writing, and listening to music are some of the best things that people take for granted, and through them, they are able to express how they are feeling in that moment. People fall in love with books or a song. People do this because they feel that they are connected to that book or song on some sort of personal level.
So maybe if you don’t feel like talking to a friend or anyone in general, pick up a book or listen to a song, escape for a little while 'til it all makes sense again. You are not alone, many of people feel like this all the time every day and sometimes it’s nice to know that you aren’t alone. So instead of feeling trapped or overwhelmed, allow yourself to fall in love with a book, or a song, and even better, yourself.
