So she didn’t choose you?
Alright, that entire statement is horrendous in the first place; why are you even losing any sleep over another human being that had more than one choice? Always hold yourself up to a standard that you are not a choice. Your first mistake was even thinking that you were an option because I’m going to be honest, you aren’t.
You knew what you wanted, you didn’t need any other option than the only option, and that was the one human being that you wanted. Some people are lucky; they end up with the person who loves them just as much as they love them. Those are the people you look up too.
After going through everything, realizing you aren’t an option, you do some soul searching, you do some screwing around, you spend too much money at the bar, and you stay up way too late with people you don’t even know. All for the fact of feeling something other then what you are actually feeling. We have all gone through it and it is completely okay, because once you get to the step of actually acknowledging the fact that you are worth so much more, you are very attractive, and you have a bright-ass future ahead of you, then you start to fall back in love with yourself and the life that you are living. That is what matters the most.
So stop thinking about it in the sense of you weren’t picked, or it wasn’t the right time, or that it just didn’t happen because of some odd alien explosion on a different planet. You were good enough, and you still are good enough, just maybe not right now and maybe there is someone way better out there that is just waiting for you to stroll along their path. So until that day happens, keep on doing what you are doing, keep staying out late with a heavy bar tab, keep waking up early the next day, fall in love with your life, fall in love with your friends, and fall in love with the process.
Believe in the process, believe in the path you are on. It always gets better, no matter what happens.