That guy you've been stuck on since the 8th grade, you are better than him. That guy you threw yourself at every chance you got, you are better than him. The boy you couldn't get over, because he was the first one that loved you after what happened, you are better than him. That guy you've been through hell and back with, you are better than him.
Have Your Voice Heard: Become an Odyssey Creator
He is not the only guy that will love you. You say "if spent a year with him, we have history". He will not be the only guy to love you. You cannot hang on to someone just because of history! It won't feel like it at first. You'll feel hurt, lost, alone, and like you have made the worse choice of your life. You will feel incomplete. But I can promise you whether you're listening to "i hate u, i love u" by gnash or "A little bit stronger" by Sara Evans..it will go away. Let yourself have those feelings and don't push them away, let them out.
"You have to love yourself before anyone else will". My mother used to tell me that. She would say, "if you can't love yourself, how can anyone else?" This is real life. No prince is going to come crashing in and save you from your dark demons. Because lets be honest, your darkest demons are yourself. Embrace yourself. Love yourself for every goofy, silly, dramatic thing you do EMBRACE IT!!
He doesn't care about you. It's sad I know. You care about him so much, but you are just convenient to him. You've threaten to leave him, but you both know how totally empty that threat is and you would never. Every chance you try, however, he comes sweeping in. Saying sorry and promising change, but how long until you are right back to the way before. Leave, he will be fine and you will be 100x better, and yes it will take awhile to feel that way.
Stop posting so he will see it. Every girl can see right through your plan and you are making a fool of yourself. Don't make yourself look anymore stupid than he already did. Move on. Stay off soical media for awhile. Don't stalk him, or any of the girls he is with. Live your life without him.
You are better than him. You are strong and if you're strong enough to let him walk all over you and still come, why wouldn't you be strong enough to live for yourself? You don't have to stay will him. You don't have to impress him. Live for you, impress yourself. Love yourself!!
"It doesn't happen over night, but you turn around and months gone by and you realize you haven't cried" ~ Sara Evans.