I remember back when relationships were made at the moment and not on a social application. Remember when there were eHarmony and match.com? I do, even though I was too young to use it.
Nowadays, we rely on apps like Tinder, Bumble, Grindr and OkCupid to get a quick fix or a quick date. Technology's pretty savvy, that's for sure. But, in a way, these apps definitely drain you emotionally and mentally.
On these apps, we focus so much on who's appealing and who's sexy, based on a simple picture, knowing damn well that those pictures alone won't determine if that person is right for you.
Dating apps promote relationships but ignore the "don't judge a book by its cover" motto we've always learned.
I'd be lying if I said I didn't fall into the dating app trap, and honestly, it's no fun.
Dating apps lowered my self-esteem and drained most of the pride I've gained before I even attended Penn State.
While I'm primarily here at Penn State for my Bachelor's, having a social life and taking care of myself are two big factors in surviving in college. I can say I've made interesting friends and met some interesting people, but not one that would stick around for the intimacy.
At first, I relied on dating apps just to experience it.
In the beginning, it was fun—swiping left and right felt like a freaking buffet. It made me feel like I had the power to choose.
A match, or one message from someone that showed interest in me, made me feel rewarded. It was the dopamine kicking in, I guess.
However, those I found interest in on the dating apps were less likely to reciprocate those feelings.
I figured I set my standards too high and no one would be interested in a guy like me. Instead of matches, I'd get this:
Truth is, It made me feel like shit, and even my friends in college could notice that my behavior changed.
I became more irritable, I barely focused on my assignments, and I'd eat my life away.
I also remember crying about it freshman year.
Someone on a dating app once told me, "You take things way too seriously on here," but you know, when you haven't been in a committed relationship before or never had anyone take interest in you, wouldn't you feel the same way?
On other apps, I got blocked—just for sending a proper picture of myself. Other times, I'd get ignored, or a blunt "You're just not my type" line with a fake apology.
Granted, I'd understand that. We all have preferences. However, when you're rude about them, don't shove it in my face.
There were times I'd delete the apps, and I felt a little better. However, I'd still feel discouraged, considering the fact that a majority of the friends I've made at Penn State got into relationships through dating apps, and I don't like being a third wheel.
And look at me, telling myself and everyone that no one will want me, and I'd often get the "You're still young, man, you have time. Don't rush into it."
Of course, I have time, but will I ever find my person?
Anyway, dating apps may be a fun, quick game to pass the time, but I do think that it has emotional and mental damage labels written all over it.
Perhaps If I remain confident and refuse to let things get to me, like a silly app, maybe things would be better.
If you're feeling worthless because of a dating app, honestly, just delete it. Take a break. There are many other ways to find yourself and find your someone. Technology can't build you a boyfriend or girlfriend.
Don't believe fiction.