If you had been loving, I would have still thrown it in your face

If you had taught me value, I would have still looked in the trash

If you had been nature, I would have still been fire

If you had been kind, I would have still been brash

If you had been a novelist, I would have still be illiterate

If you had told me "I love you," I would have still replied with "Thanks"

If you had shown up, I would have still asked you to leave

If you had never laid a finger on me, I would have still created the bruises myself

If you had created stability, I would have still been insane

If you had not given up on me, I would have still disappointed

If you had given me encouragement, I would have still failed

If you had been forgiving, I would have still held a grudge

If you had been dying, I would have still walked away

Atleast I hope I would.