Everyone, at any given point in their life, is uncertain. I would even go as far to say that everyone is uncertain about at least one thing at this very moment. And you know what? That's perfectly okay. There's a lot of pressure in society today to have "everything figured out" but if you think about it, what does that even mean?
As a recent graduate, I know this feeling all too well. Everyone expects me to be on a path, to have a plan. So like everyone else, I took a shot in the dark and picked a major that sounded interesting but if I'm being honest, I don't actually know what I'm doing. That's a hard thing to admit because we're taught that from senior or even junior year of high school, we're just supposed to know. I don't even know what I'm supposed to know. I'm just sort of lost here, floating around at college and trying to make the most of things. People told me when I got here everything would just fall into place. Well, I'm still waiting. But why is that a bad thing? There's a simple answer to that question. It's not.
There are more people out there then you think, people you see every day, that seem like they have it all together. I'm here to break the news to you that they don't. Everyone is anxious and confused just like you are. What can you conclude from this? You have to learn to be comfortable in your discomfort, to be certain in your uncertainty.
It's okay to say that you just don't know.
I have been taught my whole life to fear the unknown, and I'm sure you have to. It's not until I got to college and got thrown into a crowd of uncertain people that I became aware that it wasn't just me. As scary as it is, I learned to be comfortable with my uncertainty and just accept that I don't have it all figured out.
I used to think that I was just "type A" or liked structure in my life. While some of that may be true, I realized that my constant need for everything to go as planned is my fear of the unknown shining through. I learned that I just needed to start to let go of somethings and trust that God will take care of them. If I just took a deep breath, some of the anxiety I had desperately held on to would melt away. All the fears that I held so deep within me that they started to cling to my personality like plaque would just break up and fall away. If I just learned to let go, I would start to become me again.