I graduate on the 28th of October and like most graduates, I want to know if my life will be spent paying back loans or doing something fun. Like most college students I went to school for writing because I liked to write. I didn't go to the school because writing was my love, I went because my friend wanted someone to go to school with him. Anything was better than staying in New York and being stuck in that soul sucking place.

Now three years later here I am, about to go into the work force, but am I needed? Is there a place for someone like me to make a living and love doing it. I was just a kid that loved to nap and sleep, but now that kid is no more. I hate sleeping in and I get anxiety attacks if I stay in my place for more than a day. I need to work and show production gives me that comfort, but there are days when I don't work, like yesterday, October 14th. I worked half the day to go to Halloween Horror Nights, but my mind was on work the whole time I was at HHN. I hated myself for leaving early and I didn't have as much fun as I should have.

When did doing something completely out of my field give me so much satisfaction? I am not excited to graduate, I just want to get to work and have some fun.