It's funny, I'd never think by age 22 I would have experienced this much heartbreak.
I'm not talking about boys. I'm talking about the heartbreak you can experience with friends.
To the friends who have come and gone. To the friends who have hurt me or pushed me down. You, too, have broken my heart.
I think my heart broke more from you than any guy or boyfriend I've ever had a relationship with. I've always been warned that girls are catty, petty, or just bitches.
Well, universe, you were right, and I don't think there is any way around it.
This is just a fact. Something we must accept.
I'm sure I fall into one of these categories as well, but here I am able to own up. ADMIT IT.
Ladies,
Past, present, and future friends: you struggle with this truth about yourself. You fear the judgment from others. You're embarrassed. You let your own insecurities stand in the way of your ability to uncover who you really are.
It's not my job to tell you to work on this; you have to want it for yourself. However, it is my hope that one day you will be at peace about all of this, and all of those insecurities will fade away.
I wish this for you. When the next set of people walk into your life, they will be able to see the truest, most pure form of yourself.
You deserve to let the world see you for who you truly are.
I wish this for you. Even though I know I won't be lucky enough to see it for myself.
I wish you embrace this form of you because I know it is beautiful. I know it is elegant.
I'm sorry I will always remember how you made me feel in this moment, but one day I will hear how you have grown. These feelings will start to disappear.
You may not be present right now, but you will still have a place in my heart. I will carry these memories with me always.
I wish this for you.
XO