I live with the constant struggle of always having the idea that I'm not good enough stored in the back of my mind. It varies from everything from I am not good enough to accomplish my dreams and aspirations to I am not good enough to be with that guy. It seems to be a continuous and constant battle in which I always find myself failing at. It is hard to admit to our flaws, and even more difficult to accept them. I have never been good at that, but who really is? I always find myself in a position of comparing myself to others, even though I know I shouldn't. Either it's she is prettier than me. Skinnier than me. Smarter than me. More funny than me. There is always something that I want, that someone has, and that I don't. The underlying question I have to ask myself is: Will I ever be enough? Not necessarily for others, but will I ever be good enough for myself?
Maybe you think I'm being over dramatic when I say this, but maybe I don't care. I think it is time for me to stop caring so much about what others may think of me. What other people think of me has nothing to do with me at all. Because although it is hard to say at times, I AM enough. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to not fear being myself. I deserve to not fear failure, but to learn from it. This situation is very common among people today. And as much as I want to tell you to simply accept yourself, I know it is not that simple to do. There are no steps to give, and no easy way to do this. It takes patience and time, and for some more than others. I just am here to tell you that you are not crazy, weird, over dramatic, and most of all you are NOT ALONE when it comes to this battle. You stand with millions of others who are going through the same fight.
You have to remember that this is a battle that takes place in your head, in my head, and in millions of others as well. It's hard, and it'll never fully go away. But you need to know YOU ARE good enough, we are ALL good enough. Everyone is the way they are for a reason, learn to love yourself for who you are. Find the guy who supports you, knows your worth, and is more than willing to give you the world. Do what you want with your life, and don't ever let anyone, not even your own self try to convince you not to. Never let anyone keep you back from being the best you that you can possibly be. No matter what problems or hard times come up in life, just know that you can accomplish anything you put your heart to. Don't worry about being good enough for someone else. Learn to be good enough for your own self. And for the ones who do not approve and support your ideas and your quirks... they don't deserve someone like you. As long as you're happy. As long as you're living each day to the fullest. That is all that matters.
In the wise words of Ferris Bueller, "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in awhile you could miss it." Don't waste your time, don't waste your life comparing yourself to others. JUST BE YOU. You're the only person in the world that will always without any doubt be there for you. Learn to love yourself and your whole world will be a whole lot more clearer.