From love novels to romantic-happy ending movies, I've watched most of them and it was because just like most girls growing up, I could not wait to meet my Prince Charming. The one I would finally say the infamous three word phrase to, and the phrase that some of us hold on so tight to.
As little girls, we live through fairy tales and eventually fall in love with the idea of our Prince Charming or simply the idea that someday someone out there will eventually love us the way our fathers told us we deserve to.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been that girl. I was always a hard-core believer that my first love would be my first and my last one. I can swear I even once told myself to never say that phrase to anyone that didn't deserve it. I always promised myself to be cautious and to choose right, so God forbid you'd tell me that things happened for a reason, I'd be for sure the first one to argue against it.
But it is for a fact that when you least expect it, you find yourself giving your all to someone that despite of what your friends and family say or even despite of every flaw you might see in him or her, that person is perfect in every single-lovable-damn way. It is during this time in your life where you believe to be in control of the things life throws your way, except one that you were never really prepared for. Your first heartbreak, which ironically enough happens to come from the person you swore was your better half, "the love of your life." The one you trusted your gut with and the one you said the 8 letter, 3 word phrase to, which you were cautiously holding for someone worthy of it. Just like the princesses or the girls in all those love stories, you fell head over heels for a guy…and you said, “I Love You.”
You fought everyone out there, your friends and families. You pictured yourself and this other person, living and staying together for eternity, just to realize a few months or maybe even years later of how right everyone was. Yes, you will cry against your pillow for nights or over a phone conversation with your best friend, you’ll get anxiety attacks each and every time you'll see him but all of that will help you will realize that the love and connection that once unified the both of you was only temporary or was never really there to begin with. The emotional fluctuation you’ll experience will be tough at first but just like any other bad thing in life, it will only be temporary and it’ll be over when you least expect it. and though you will swear to never say that word again or until someone special finds you, you’ll be okay.
You'll be okay because there will eventually come a day where it will be too hard for you to cry and a day in which it will hit you, that your first love was never the first one and that things in life actually do, happen for a reason.Better yet, you'll have realized that it's time to move on because life as well, goes on…