I ripped up my ticket to forget you like the pieces
Underneath it all, I was a game
I was the computer, use me for this
Picking at my feelings like there was a reward,
I didn't know vulnerability was a level-up
You were just another one of them, while I was just another her,
Keep me in silence,
I am nothing,
Rejecting me happens once,
Never again will I see another you.
How to Deal with Rejection
This is one of the hardest emotions I've had to deal with all summer. There is no such thing as, "this is meant to be" and I mean that in the most negative way possible. You choose your decisions in life because there is no assigned love life for you. There's a possibility that you will meet that significant other the way you wished to meet your soulmate. However this doesn't mean every fairy tale ends with a perfect ending.
You think everything is going smoothly, but things are way too perfect. The active messages are gone and your stuck waiting for a chance at conversation. Then you start to worry and eventually you hang out and figure out that the gut feeling you felt yesterday was for a reason.
I can tell you from experience that any advice I received about handling this situation went from one ear to another. The reason behind this was because I thought I was wrong.
How mistaken you can be to think that rejection is your fault. It never is, unless you gave that person a legitimate reason. I still remember blasting Kygo's new album laying on my bed arms and legs apart, thinking maybe I shouldn't have said this, or maybe he thinks I'm weird for believing this, maybe I should have changed this so he could like me. Besides feeling responsible for the rejection, I felt that it failed because there was a lack of communication. We were in that weird stage where the wall still existed and the insecurities of mutual feelings began to haunt our thoughts, or maybe just my thoughts. Although I was slowly uncovering the navel of my deepest secrets, he remained hidden. When we hung out it felt so distant and too new. It was like the late- night FaceTime calls never happened, or the constant cute text messages were a fragment of my imagination. I was slowly realizing that whatever I thought we had was a one- sided belief.
Darling, don't be so naive as to think that changing any part of you will make a man love you. I was so blinded by all the nice things he showered my brain with. Sometimes we become so vulnerable to comments we want to hear, that we miss the premeditated plan. This plan to just butter up the women you're talking to, to get a little over her waistline. Just know that you were always those "perfect" comments, even before he mentioned them to you. Vulnerability is not a flaw but it is most definitely something you should not show in the first few weeks of talking to someone. I am not suggesting to play "the game", however I do recommend to leave space for questions.
In order to deal with rejection you should know:
- It is never your choice, and besides if you know that you're great it's their loss.
- You cannot force that person to be into you again, and don't waste your time.
- People come and go all the time. You are bound to meet someone that loves you for you.
- Things like this are a blessing because without it you wouldn't know what red flags are.
- You won't always get an answer as to why you were rejected. You don't need it to move on. I never got my answer and that's okay.
- This is all a learning process.
- You will probably reject someone too.
Stay True to You.
