Trusting someone can be difficult; hell, trusting anyone can be difficult. Regardless of the person you’re putting your trust into, the act alone says that you believe in someone enough that you don't think they’ll hurt you emotionally (or physically). I know I'm not the only one with trust issues, with letting people into my life. It's nerve-wracking and it’s scary. You don't know what the outcome is going to be; you don't know if that person will break you or betray you.
I've got quite a few friends who have trust issues, especially when it comes to romantic relationships. In fact, one of my best friends and I are exactly alike in the way that we don't give anyone a chance, even if they deserve it. Because we constantly fear rejection from the ones who show interest, we just run away from the situation, even though there could have been a 50/50 shot at a positive outcome.
It’s hard enough putting trust in someone when you don't have a chemical imbalance in your brain, but it's even harder if you do (in my opinion, at least). Depression and anxiety have the ability to trick you into thinking that everyone is out to get you, even if they genuinely care about you. If you do end up being able to put some of your trust in a person, depression and anxiety tends to prevent you from trusting that person completely, especially if it's someone you're just getting to know. I'm always being told by my family and close friends that trust is good, and that I've got to open myself up more emotionally if I want to pursue a healthy relationship with anyone, but it's harder than it seems. Many people tend to not understand that I want to trust someone fully and undoubtedly, but I’m always sabotaging myself because I don’t feel as secure and confident as I’d like to.
Self-love and self-care are so important when it comes to the concept of trust. Making sure that you're proud of the person you’ve become is essential to any type of relationship because it provides you with mental and emotional stability. It's a difficult task and I've still got a lot of work to do, but I’m getting there. Trusting someone completely will definitely pay off in the long run, but for now, all I can do is focus on myself, make progress, and hope things get better.
