Let me start off by saying this: I am not a conceited person -- not one bit. However, I know that I am a good person. I hold doors open, I say please and thank you and I am kind. You could call me anything you wanted, but if you called me a bad person, that is when I would tell you that you were wrong.
That being said, I’m often the “nice girl." I don’t like to upset anyone and I definitely don’t like to disappoint anyone. So I’ve often become the “I’m sorry” girl.
I’m sorry that you walked in front of me causing me to trip over my own feet trying not to run into you.
I’m sorry that whatever I did wasn’t enough for you.
I’m sorry that someone else didn’t do what they were supposed to do for you but I am just the one in front of you now.
I’m sorry that your plans didn’t work out because of someone else.
I’m sorry your significant other doesn’t treat you well so I start to feel guilty that mine treats me incredibly.
I’m sorry that the decisions I make for my life affect you so much that I need to apologize for living my life.
You know what? I’m NOT sorry. I’ve said the word "sorry" so many times, I may not even know what the meaning is anymore. I want to be sorry that you are having a bad day, or that someone hurt your feelings or that you missed that job opportunity. I want to be sorry that you are hurting, but I am not sorry for the person who hurt you, because it wasn’t me.
I’m also not going to apologize for making a decision that affects my life and you just don’t agree. News flash -- it isn't your life. I’m not going to feel guilty about joining a new club that you aren’t interested in, or picking up an extra shift because you couldn’t, or watching TV all night instead of going to the bars. I am not going to apologize for things that don’t need apologies for. Please stop taking advantage of my kindness and then mistaking it for weakness.
I take pride in being a kind person. I believe that if you are kind to others, others will be kind back. So please, stop treating me like I am a person you can push around because next time, I won’t apologize for your rudeness like I have before. All I will do is turn my back and walk away.
