During my four hour drive home from school, I began to have mixed feelings about the next few months. I marked on my calendar the days counting down until it was summer, but was now thinking of a million ways it could go wrong. I forced myself to be grateful for time off of school, but some of the negatives were impossible to avoid.

1. Adapting

While being away from home for nine months, I developed my own schedule and didn’t have to worry about interfering with anyone else’s. I did whatever I wanted when I wanted. Currently, I’m in this awkward state of living with my parents again and not knowing exactly what my boundaries are. Reverting from the independent-college lifestyle to the at-home lifestyle will be frustrating.

2. Seeing Old Friends

Finally, I don’t have to say goodbye to my friends after a short weekend visit. We have the whole summer to relax just like the old days… Well, I hope so. I can’t help but wonder if everything will be the same. Have my friends changed? Have I changed? Change can be a good thing, though! I’ve also lost touch with some of my friends over my first semesters. Hopefully it’s not too late to catch up and rekindle the friendship flame.

3. Those People You Could Really Go Without Seeing

One of my favorite things about going to college was the idea that I got to somewhat start over. Awkward exes, enemies and the high school drama was left behind until now. During the summer, I’m bound to run into at least one of those. Can we just avoid the painful small talk and pretend like we didn’t see each other?

4. Job Searching

Frantically I’m searching for a job so I’m not bored out of my mind anymore. Plus, I wouldn’t mind not being broke anymore. I’ll apply for everything I can get my hands on and hope for the best. I’d rather be busy and making money than sitting around wasting time. So is this what being an adult feels like?

5. Enjoying Leisure

Naps, naps and more naps. Goodbye, lofted twin bed and hello queen, I missed you! My only excuse is that I’m catching up on those hours of sleep I lost writing essays and studying for finals. Not having to worry about school work for a minute is a huge stress reliever.

6. Missing Your College Town

Don’t get me wrong here, I need a break from school. But I have been home for about a week and find myself missing it each day. We all miss our favorite food joints, late weekend nights and new friends. Pathetically, I even miss the dining hall food and my tiny dorm.