Anyone who actually knows me, knows I have been single since the day I have come out of the womb. At this point in my life, I am entirely happy with it. I think about all the guys I have pictured I would want a future with, and thank God for clarity. Being single is more than okay. Being single is focusing on yourself when no one else will. I have been able to find the part of me that I wouldn’t have found if I was busy in a relationship. I am finally to the happiest point in my life and it is because I have stayed single. I am not saying anything is wrong with those that choose to be in relationships, some find happiness in other areas. But to those that question your happiness because you don’t have a significant other, reevaluate if you are looking for permanent or temporary happiness.
I am at a point in my life that when a guy comes into my life and we start a relationship, I will love myself enough to love him too. How can you love someone when you don’t even love yourself first? I have had to learn to accept my own flaws and baggage so that I can love their flaws and baggage. After years of trying to look good for boys around me, I want to look good for myself. It wouldn’t have been fair for me to jump into a relationship and turn them down when they say I am beautiful or compliment me on anything. I pray for my future husband constantly and I know one day I will have a guy who loves me just as much as I will love him, so why rush anything?
I always seem to be the friend watching her friends get treated horribly and I give them advice that I would give myself in those situations, but I am thankful that I am not in those situations.
I used to be the person who felt useless unless a guy wanted to talk to me. I used to also be unhappy and now I know why. I relied on the feelings of those around me, mostly guys, for satisfactions. I thank god for the “used to”s because you will now catch me with a smile on my face in almost all situations, good or bad. You will now see me taking pictures alone and smiling anyway. You will now see me having a good ole’ time with my sorority sisters and not have to check my phone to see if my crush texted me. My parents always told me “Good things come to those who wait”, and if that is true, I will someday have something not just good, but great.
Nineteen is the age of self-exploration, adventures, and the last official year as a teenager. I am okay with being single during it because I have now found myself. I am now ready to love someone and love myself, too.
