It is hard sometimes to figure out where you are in life. At 26, I feel like I am in this flux of being very rational and mature about where my life is and at the same time I am not very sure about anything at all.
But I'm realizing slowly that the things that mattered to me are constantly changing. My life, which consisted of staying in school, studying, getting a degree, holding a job, gaining prestige doesn't mean as much to me as much as I thought. The things that do matter are becoming more apparent as time continuously passes on but I'm learning that life is a constant, ever-evolving process that requires a good amount of patience and a staunch belief in perseverance.
But the question I keep on asking myself is do I actually know where I am or even where I want to be. The answer is: you just know. Somehow, even in all of the craziness and chaos, you'll know when you are exactly where you need to be. For myself, I'm pretty sure that I am there and I'm satisfied.
I define myself as a highly anxious, overly self-critical, and sometimes neurotic. It is difficult sometimes to live life in such a way because what if I am making a mistake. I've made plenty in the past, some that I keep close to my heart, and I always fear that I am completely naive to how a person can be. But I get out of there on my own resolve eventually.
But I know that whether good or bad is happening, I am where I need to be. My feelings may change, circumstances can shift, and people can leave, but I know that I am where I need to be. There are subtle signs that show you where exactly that takes place and all anyone has to do is to simply be aware of it.
After all, life always seems to know where you need to be.