I want to be successful, have a job, get married, have kids; or at least that's what everyone else had told me while I was growing up.

I didn't want to conform to that. My dreams didn't exactly match up with those. I wanted to sing. I wanted to travel the world. I wanted to be just like the Crocodile Hunter, what 11 year old didn't?

My dreams changed of course as I grew. I wanted to be a nurse. I wanted to work with computers. I wanted be an astronaut. Wait no. Maybe a veterinarian. Or I could be famous. I wanted to do everything and anything I could learn to do.

For a while I conformed to those ideas everyone had told you to do when you were a grown up.

"I want 3 kids of my own."

"I want to get married as soon as possible."

"I want to be a stay at home mom."

"I want to be practical."

Then I knew what I wanted. Or so I thought.

I'm different now. Always changing.

The one thing that I am sure of is this one thing.

STOP.

ASKING.

I'm a kid. Barely an adult. I change my mind.

There was nothing wrong with my dreams. They were mine and they were me.

I've let it go. I'm different. I know that.

But I know myself now. I know what I want.

"I want to finish college."

"I want to adopt kids, I don't want any of my own."

"I want to live somewhere besides Indiana."

I want to be happy. I want to cuddle up next to the love of my life every night and wake up next to them the very next day. I want to eat my cereal at a table in my dining room with hopefully, my future children. I want to live somewhere where it always rains, I've always wanted to go to Oregon. Maybe I'll end up there. But there are so many things to go through before I'm there.

I'll be a teacher and will love everyday of it.

I'll be a mother and love unconditionally.

I'll travel and cherish every minute of it.

I will learn how to be myself eventually.

I'll be happy and that's what I've always wanted to be.