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When You're Hard To Love

Let's just say I'm a little too good at pushing people away.

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When You're Hard To Love
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I've been told the last couple years that I am hard to love. Friends and boys leave just as quickly as they come into my life.

I've been told my standards are too high. I have standards for the people I allow into my life, whether they are friends or men. I surround myself with people who are mostly positive. They are uplifting. They aim to better the people around them. They truly care about those around them. They try to better themselves every day. They have goals and are passionate about something.

I'm opinionated. Oh no, a female who has no filter. It can't be. I have a hard time holding my tongue when it is a necessary time to speak my opinion. If you ask me how I feel about something, I will tell you my opinion. I'm also a sarcastic asshole so that doesn't help either.

I won't keep something to myself in order to protect someone's feelings. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. If you are a true friend, we can work it out.

I'm moody. I live a very stressful life. This causes moodiness often, so the people I surround myself with just kind of have to get used to me being really happy one second, crying the next and cracking jokes right after.

I'm extremely honest. I've learned over the years that it is much easier in the long run to just tell the truth rather than lie about something, even if it causes some type of uncomfortable atmosphere.

I have come to like change. The past five years have been full of change. I've learned to not get used to the things around me. I never become complacent because I know that it won't last long.

I purposely push people out of my life. People either move or leave. I rarely have friends in the same town, and we can't consistently make time for each other. To prevent from getting hurt, I purposely push people out. I find one thing I don't like about them, whether that is something they said, the way they act, the way they treat their momma, etc.

I'm busy. I have a crazy busy schedule where I can barely make time to have a coffee date with someone. I have to schedule people in because my life gets so crazy.

I am terrible at fostering relationships. Most relationships need the time and effort to make it thrive; well, I don't have that. I'm so focused on school and my other responsibilities that finding time to respond to text messages or spend time with someone is quite impossible.

I've been hurt a lot in the past. I've gotten my heart broken, I've trusted when I shouldn't have and people continue to prove they are not worth my time. Because I've been hurt, I have a hard time trusting people. People get tired of hearing about my life, and it results in me getting hurt.

I hardly give people a chance. I'm not good at truly letting people in. It takes a lot for me to trust, so if someone gives me any type of red flag, I pull away and stop making time for them. I'm good at answering questions about what is going on in my life enough without truly talking about my deeper feelings.

Thank you to the friends who are worth me making time for. Thanks for putting up with my mood changes, my complaining and my busy schedule. Thanks for checking up on me because I forget to respond to text messages.

To the boys who left because I'm difficult, that's a loss on your part, not mine.

I'm going to keep doing me and enjoying life. I will never apologize for being difficult, because those that matter and are truly here because they care about me will stick with me through it all.

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