When your heart is in two towns, you find yourself constantly wondering if the grass is greener on the other side. You're constantly disappointing someone rather it be your friends, family, boyfriend/girlfriend. You're constantly reminded of what you're missing out on in the form of Snapchats and stories on Monday at lunch.
As much as you try to find a balance between your significant other, family, and friends the hard truth is that you will always feel like your missing out on something, you'll always be missing someone, and you will always be wondering "what if".
So how do you find happiness? How do you find that imaginary balance where you make everyone in your life happy, while still having a good time yourself?
The solution can be simply put as, you can't.
You can't make everyone in your life and yourself happy at the same time, and honestly, why should you feel obligated to?
Why should we as people feel obligated to put anyone's opinions and happiness above our own. If it makes you happy to go out every night, DO YOU. If it makes you happy to go home every night, DO YOU. And if it makes you happy to spend every night with your significant other, DO YOU. In the end people with either support you in your decisions or will slowly but surely vanish from your life all-together.
Now, I do not mean to sound angry or hasty. I love my life. I love my family, I love my boyfriend, I love my friends, but sometimes not all in that order. What I've come to realize in this new school year is that the person's happiness that matters the most, is mine. My heart is torn between two towns. The town where I grew up and where my wonderful family and boyfriend live, and the town I live in now where my a m a z i n g friends live. I'm constantly having to pick between the two and try and make at least one group semi-happy in the process.
So when your heart is torn between two towns and you find yourself having to choose between people you love, I pray that you surround yourself with people who will support and love you.
Take your time and trust your gut. And above all, surround yourself with people who respect and trust that you're doing what absolutely makes you happy.
Because when your heart is in two towns, why should you do anything but follow it?
