The chemistry between us is toxic. Burning my throat, there is a hole in my esophagus. I can only gasp when I try to breathe. Inhaling your pain, struggling to swallow my truths. I don’t know who I am or who I belong to.

The reigns of your lies have filled my ears with deafening sounds. Living underwater, eyes burning to see who you really are. Twisted truths that seem like paradise but really it’s hell. A fire burning my skin cells, paralyzing my nerves. I’m waiting for you to save me. Lift me up from the cracks of my deterioration and put me back together again.

Hold the super glue and use the strings that connect your heart muscles. Love me enough for the both of us. Save me from drowning in the sea that is your mistakes and lies and deceit. Hear my cries and cradle me until you believe. See that we can work and survive together.

Our chemistry is toxic but our love is deeper than the deep blue sea that catered to Jaws. It’s wild like a girls night with lots of tequila and no boys. It’s scary and beautiful like the creation of life. I want to give you my all and then some. Give you my dreams on a full moon, kiss your lips with a smile escaping. Taking that pause of breath and realizing this is where I want to be. Ignoring the pain you cause because I made the list and the pros outweigh the cons. The shaky breath that leaves my lips is the fear of me losing you.

Losing myself.

I suppose it’s too late for that because here I am willing to give you my all. When you can’t even give me half.