I want to start by saying that among Odyssey teams, I am in the company of some absolutely incredible talent and all around awesome sauce people. All of us work incredibly hard to be the absolute best we can be. As an editor, I can see all the incredible work my team puts forth week after week, and I am so proud of them.

That being said, I can also see the attention our writers get, or lack thereof. We don't get nearly the amount of visibility we should, which is really, really sad.

So when one of our writer's work gets an insane amount of visibility, your first instinct is to "attack" the creator and bury them up to their eyes in praise, which is exactly what happens in the group chat. However, this is almost always followed by thoughts that you'd probably want to keep to yourself, such as; "Why wasn't it me," "Don't I deserve it too," and "It's unfair and unjust!"

This begs the question- if I'm thinking things like this as constantly as I am, why am I doing this at all?

As an editor, I have access to how many views and shares each submitted work receives, and my numbers are among the lowest of the entire team. Even my favorite article to date, How My Fraternity Helped Me Get Over My "Little Lion Men"--an article written during a major milestone in my life, where I decided to publicly face a significant portion of my past head-on-- was met with far less enthusiasm than I hoped for and expected.

But that does not make me any less proud of the piece. I bore my soul for "Little Lion Men" and many others, and I am a firm believer that those who are meant to read my work will... not that it really matters, considering I write just as much for myself than for other people, if not more so.

Whether it's writing things that would make me laugh or giving myself a therapy session, I have made it my goal to create content that I wold want to see from the moment I was brought onto this team. And that's really what matters.

Do I have issues with jealousy? Sure, but don't we all? This may be something I need to work on, but at least now I have a definitive place to start. I'm sure I'll be fine, I've always turned out alright in the end.

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven... Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth." -- Matthew 5:3-5 (ESV)