*Heavy sigh
Time. Is not out friend, does not wait for us, it moves forward and never goes back. We have twenty-four hours in a day. You do with those hours as you wish, be asleep, eat, work, study or play. With time you get to places both figuratively and literally. You get to places as in a job, school or through friendship or relationship. NOTHING is reached from one day to the next, but with time.
I don’t know about you but I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason. Obviously it is a bit more complex than that when dealing with a tough situation such as unemployment, heartbreak or different losses. Every second of every minute of every hour of every day counts and is strategically aligned. I know I sound totally weird right now but it’s true!
Around campus I have bumped into old friends, professor, crushes etc. because I purposely took longer walking or gathering my things. One time I was walking down campus and I had to wash my hands so I went to the restroom and said might as well go use it now that I am here. When I walked out I bumped into an old classmate and we ended up hanging out after. Point is, I could have missed her by a second.
I also truly believe that you meet people for two reasons; they are either a blessing or a lesson. I can name all the people I have lost in my life, who stopped talking to me and can tell you the lessons I learned at the same time. I became close to people who I did not even imagine, people who were simply classmates, colleagues, and co-workers.
I learned to keep a small circle and trust certain individuals. I have my family, my sister and not only is she my sister but she is also my best friend, mom, dad, psychologist, counselor, teacher and much more. She is the one I confide in the most. You just get to a certain point in life where you make room for those who demonstrate that they care and let go of the ones that do not.
I have had many epiphanies from summer to now. I have met new people, tried new things and accepted a hard reality. I accepted the fact that I had to take up a job in retail to help me afford a car and provide what I can for my parents. I was able to get that car! I have met outgoing people at work and it has been fun too. I have taken it all one day at a time. I have attended some events and networked with wonderful people.
Life is slowly but surely moving into the right direction for me in every category. There have been some wonderful night outings with friends and a little more. But there has reached a point in where I realized that things were off.
As always, I follow my gut and do what I believe is best although it may hurt. And it is easy to justify a situation by saying that “the timing is just off” but in reality it is not. That is something we tell ourselves to make us feel better. But sooner or later you realize that you let go of certain things; a job, class, friend or partner because you had to. You let go to make room for the better.
In life there is no room for pettiness, bullshit or lies at least not in mind. I do not waste my energy on decoding a petty text, lie and going back and forth with a “he said, she said,” with anything. I have left work environments for those reasons as well as friendships. I have been told before that I am bitch for doing that and that I don’t get along with everybody because I am negative.
Honey… no.
When you get to know me and I find that I can trust you, it is the most magical thing ever. I will be there for you and uplift you and fill your life with so much positivity and laughs. I know I sound super cocky right now but I don’t care, my friends will read this and be like “oh my god this is typical you” and laugh. But when you show me that you can care less about me or that you only reach out when you need something, that’s it. I let go. Lesson learned and guess what, someone/something wonderful will take your spot.
Trust the timing of your lives.
