When I told her that I loved her

She never said I love you back

She said she wasn't into me

That I was her brother and friend

That she never wanted to ruin what we had

When I told her I wanted to kill myself

She said that there was someone out there that has it worse off

That I had no reason to die

That I was going to get better

That it wasn't worth it

When I told her I cared

She wrapped her arms around me in an embrace

She showed me her scars

Fresh and Faded

I told her that relapses would become a distant memory

When I told her that he wasn't right

She ignored me

Begged me to see him as good

Told me I would be a bad friend if I didn't

I didn't want to lose her so I stood by and watched her heart break

When I told her how I felt for the second time

She said it wouldn't be right

She said she didn't want to hurt me

I said okay and that I'll always be there

I told her that as long as I had her that would be enough

She left me soon after

Messages on read

See you tomorrow soon became Later

Late night convos soon became nonexistent

It was almost as if we became strangers

But I still loved her

I still knew all of her favorite things

All of her little secrets that made her so beautiful

Treasuring the little moments we had together

I just wish I got a chance to tell her goodbye