Man, have I been there. Actually, I'm there now.
I'm trying to do what's right.
I'm trying to obey God.
I'm trying to pursue His will for my life.
I'm seeking His voice.
But I don't hear anything.
I've always heard people say "God always answers, just not always in the way we expect"
But what happens when it genuinely feels like there's no answer? When we ask God what decision to make, what path He wants us on
Not a "yes"
Not a "no"
Not a "wait"
Nothing.
Silence.
It's frustrating. It sends me into a "God, why?!" mentality.
Is He not listening?
Or worse - does He not care?
All of those thoughts + more start to flood my mind.
Questions.
Doubts.
Lies.
And then, I remind myself of the truth - the truth of who God is.
I remind myself that He sees the bigger picture.
I remind myself that He has given me His Holy Spirit.
The Spirit that helps to lead me, to guide me.
The Spirit that was given to me as a helper, and now lives within me.
I choose to believe that even when I don't feel it, He's leading me.
I choose to believe that as long as I seek Him, He will make my path straight.
I choose to believe He is who He says He is.
God won't punish me for earnestly seeking His will for my life.
"i call on you, my God, for you will answer me; turn your ear to me and hear my prayer." -psalm 17:6
"he will respond to the prayer of the destitute; he will not despise their plea" - psalm 102:17