When I was applying for colleges I had this perception that I’ll have all the time in the world to do what I want while I go to classes in the day. Jokes on me, boy was I wrong. Attending classes is just a way to review what you learned in the homework the night before. Going to classes in one way is there for you to learn, but it’s really up to you to push yourself into being what you want to be. I think it’s all a part of growing up, but I’m not the same girl who thought going out every night is the life I want to have.

Of course when I go out I still have fun, but I cherish the moments when I can just lay in bed because I have absolutely nothing to do that day (which is rare). I’ve really become an old lady who enjoys spending time with her cat, sipping on tea before bed, and calling going to bed before 12pm a good night. There’s really nothing wrong with any of that but it definitely was not who I expected to be.

I think we all have this fantasy of ourselves where we can fit in every social group in some way, but realistically, that is just not possible. The older I get, the more I realize nobody can tell you who to be; it is completely your decision what you want to do with your life. I love my parents dearly, but like most of us we’ve grown up under their rules where they try their best to shape us into the best people they want us to be. I’m in my junior year of college and I’m just realizing in disbelief that I don’t have to follow everything that they want me to be. And I think they understand, as they don’t give their opinions on whom I should date or whether or not I should own a pet. I never thought that this would be the time where I would be questioning my life so much, as I’m expecting I will continue in the future.

I guess I’m still in awe that all of us in college are still so young and there is so much the future holds for us. It may be hard to be good at everything, but it’s definitely possible for you to be able to do anything. The inspiration for writing this brief story is that for two years at this school, it was very hard for me to grasp music theory. I kept telling myself, I’m not good at it because I’ve never learned this before, which is so silly of me since I was currently learning it. Though I still have a long way to go, I’ve started to accept starting from scratch will help me become a better musician because I will understand everything down to the basics. Most of all, my inspiration is to inspire others because in a way, that is art too.

Hopefully this gave you the little push in your day to strive to be the best person you can be!