Why do bad things always happen to good people? It always seems like the good people get screwed in the end, while the bad people always seem to get what they want. I don't know maybe it's just me who sees it that way, but I will never understand why life's got to be like that.
I always thought of myself as a good person. I always thought I was a good friend, daughter, sister, coworker and student. But recently, I have discovered that I'm not as good of a person that I always thought I was. Yet, bad things always happen to me. What's wrong with me?
I've been told that I'm over dramatic, and that I over react to everything that is said to me. Thinking about it now, they were all right. What's wrong with me?
I'm accused of being a sh*t talker. When I know damn well I'm not. But, it's hard to prove yourself not guilty when it comes to that. Why does this stuff happen?
Because I vent, that means I'm not trust worthy. Talking about something that concerns me and upsets me, means I'm telling the world my business. What? How does that make sense?
I'm a 20 year old trying to figure out life, I screw up and make mistakes, but that bothers people. It's too much for them to handle. Why? It's my life why does it affect you?
An ex best friend said to me that I was "a F#%*@$ monster and that I will never change". Is this true? Is this what people think of me? What's wrong with me?
I had at least 15 friends 6 months ago, I am down to 1 friend. 1. I'm lucky if I keep that 1 friend. Again I ask, what's wrong with me? Why does this stuff happen to me? How do I fix my life?
Life has been laying very heavy on my mind the last few months. And I'm at my breaking point. It make me wonder what is wrong with me. It makes me question how bad of a friend, sister & daughter I am. I know friends come and go, but are they all suppose to leave at once? How do I become the person everyone wants me to be ? How do I make myself and everyone else around me happy?
This is stuff that can be easily fixed. I can only count on myself. And Faith. I just need to have faith.