Dear You,

We didn't say a lot of what we wanted to say; didn't want to complicate anything because we both knew the implications. But what follows is a combination of things I didn't say or didn't say enough.

You are one of the most incredible people that I have ever met. What you have gone through would have killed lesser men, but you rise stronger from these challenges. You have taken those moments of struggle and become one of the most selfless, supportive, and caring people that I have ever met.

You have goals. Goals that are going to get you everywhere you want to go.

Your heart is gold. People always say that. It's a cliche. But the first time someone ever used that term it must have been about someone like you. The ability you have to care about people is something to be cherished and protected.

You put everyone else first, sometimes to a fault. I think today you realized that to take care of yourself we had to not be together. I think you made the right choice, even though right now my soul is aching in ways I've never felt.

What you have given me these past couple months is priceless. I always say that its only special people who I spend time with, especially at the end of a tough day. You were the first person who I felt comfortable enough with to be wild with or calm with or watch a cartoon movie with. What you know about me, well, only a couple people do.

I'm sorry for not being ready for this. You and I could be something amazing but we both know that I'm not ready yet. I wish with all my heart that I was, but I'm not. You deserve someone who is 100 percent in, no reservations, no fear of commitment. This letter is riddled with cliches. I wish I had better words.

I don't expect you to wait around for me to be ready. Go and live life fully. Be with some good people and some bad people and make mistakes. I sure as hell will. But after all of that, after the wild fades away, please give this another chance. We could be amazing, and we both know that. I hope with all my heart that you are a part of my future. Good luck with everything and I hope one day I can be the girl you need.

With love,

M