I have never had the ability to identify myself to one "group" of people -- characteristically, politically, socially, the list goes on. It is not that I have lacked a sense of self; I think I have a pretty good grasp on who I am as a person. However, I truly cannot pigeonhole myself to one category. I guess the best terminology for my personality and my lifestyle would be is to consider myself a floater. If you are a fellow floater, then you can relate. If not, then here is an inside look into the fascinating life of one.
1. I feel so whole because I can relate and mesh with so many different types of people.
Being a floater, you get to experience such a well-rounded life because of the variance of humans which whom you interact with. I believe my life is enriched because of the variety of people in it. Listening to different perspectives and experiencing different lifestyles has only broadened my horizons.
2. It can be such a blessing and a curse at times.
Although floaters can feel whole from the combination of fragmented experiences with a multitude of individuals, it is easy to lack a sense of "home." Not being able to fully identify yourself in one distinct group during certain situations in life can be very unnerving and expose one's vulnerability. But because of this we also develop a strong sense of confidence in one's own skin.
3. We fluctuate between being extroverts and introverts.
Sometimes we are full of life and can be quite the people person, and other times we can just slip away and keep to ourselves. When I am feeling sociable, I like to be the life of the party. However, I am such an incredibly introverted person at times. Most people do not realize that beyond my bubbly exterior I internalize everything and enjoy my personal reflection.
4. The term floater can have such a condescending, lonely tone to it, but at the same time it can also be perceived as liberating.
Being a floater, or in other words an independent, is incredibly liberating. Allowing yourself to be you and not put labels or stereotypes on who you are allows you to make up a unique combination of traits that formulate your being. I am not saying that everyone who is part of one organization, sorority or anything of that fashion is the same by any means. I am a part of a multitude of social organizations and have various friend groups, and I take pieces of each of them to make up who I am.
5. The world is at your finger tips and you are free to be whoever and do whatever.
I wear many hats, and that is not for any reason besides one and one only: I just love so many different things in life. Some days I want to live in a bustling city where I can get the rush off of being surrounded by a multitude of culturally diverse people all traveling around with a distinct purpose in their busy lives, and some days I want to live in the middle of nowhere in the wilderness or on a desolate beach where I can live a simple life. I want all of these things, and I hope that with my floating, independent self that I will be able to experience them all at some point.
I am constantly falling in love with life and the variety of gifts this universe delivers. I can be whoever I want and enrich myself with the diversity of things that I am blessed to encounter on my journey. Being a floater isn't too bad after all.
"Don’t be afraid to fall in love. It’s the only thing that matters in life. You just fall in love with as many things as possible." -- "Country Strong"