Life is weird. College is weird. Being an adult is... weird. Every day I wake up and change my mind on what I want to do with my life. Doesn't everyone? Hope so because what the hell is going on. I am 19 years old and I am just supposed to know what I want to do for the next 60 years. I mean how do you pick?

Maybe I should go to law school? I don't want to be a lawyer though so that's a dumb plan. Go into politics? Have you seen my finsta… yeah, that's a no. Write a book? About what? And for what audience? Marry rich? God that goes against everything I stand for.

Honestly, I could be a journalist or a lawyer or I could work for a business or in today's society I could make YouTube videos and sell fit tea on Instagram. It's hard. Some days I go to class and get so excited because I love what I am doing and other days I seriously debate changing my major and dropping out because I will never get a job. *Cue third mental breakdown of the week*.

Being a young adult is hard. You have pressure from your parents to be successful, you have to make all A's, you have to get an internship, you have to be in seven clubs, you have to have it all figured out.

Well, let me just tell you I don't. I don't have it all figured out. I don't have an internship because every time I go to apply I get stressed because you need a year of experience and there are 675 more applicants. I'm confused because I thought internships were how you got experience? No? Not anymore in today's society where jobs want you to have graduated at Harvard in the top 15% of your class.

I don't have all A's because I am taking classes that have nothing to do with my major or what I want to do in life. I am not interested in the damn scientific method and I hate math.

No, I am not in seven clubs because I have stuff to do. I have a job and homework and I need at least two naps a day.

I don't have it all figured out. It takes me 20 minutes to decide where to eat. I am still growing up. In less than a year I feel like I have changed so much and I hope to keep growing and take it day by day. So maybe I don't know what I am doing with my life. My laundry is 3 weeks behind, I haven't been to the gym in 5 months, my face is breaking out, I keep tweeting funny stuff but haven't become famous, oh and finals are coming up.

Sink or swim, amirite?