Being the odd one out of the group is a lot like being the ugly duckling. However, it's more than feeling like you don't belong. It's feeling like you don't deserve to belong.
It can depend on the person when it comes to why they feel this way. Maybe they have some sort of mental disorder that limits their social interacting skills. They constantly make mistakes that affect the group and others around them.
For me, it's exactly that. I've written about how I dwell on my mistakes on here, but I never truly expressed how left out it makes me feel. Most of the time I force myself out of the group to avoid hurting others. Other times it just comes naturally to where I feel like I can't be part of any group.
My anxiety takes over my choices which turns into this big ordeal that didn't need to happen. I regret my decisions and beat myself up over what I've done.
Even though I feel alone, I know I'm not the only one struggling. I know that other's feel the same. We may have different reasons as to why, but there's one thing that we share in common: we don't want to feel this way anymore.
We want to be free. We want to be part of the in-crowd. We want to break down the brick wall that blocks us from enjoying our lives to the fullest.
Most of the time we don't know how to do that. From what I have learned, there is one way. Find support.
That may be the last thing you want to hear when socializing is the problem you're dealing with. I promise you, I know what you mean. But if we just isolate ourselves and not seek out help, we aren't going to progress like we want to.
It doesn't have to be someone you know. You can go into therapy or call a help hotline. Basically look for someone outside of the circle you want to be in to get advice on how to be included.
Don't keep yourself locked away when all you want to do is let go.
