After reaching the lowest of the lows, it was time.

I was feeling the weight of the world all crashing down on me at once, and as a college student, I know this tends to happen. You get stressed out with finals, relationships or worrying about failing your parents. I had gone through all of that but this time was different.

I had cried all I could cry, wept even, called my best friends, even my sister. I remember saying "I don't even know what to wear half the time how am I supposed to know what I want to do with the rest of my life" nothing was fulfilling to me. I was worried about my career, my relationship, my long term goals. Nothing could stop my worry, my anxiety of life. I felt as if the world made no sense. We aim for success but life just keeps throwing disappointments and tragedy, I felt useless and uninspired. My heart was always beating a thousand miles per hour. The only thing left I knew that I could depend on for even a smidge of hope was God.

I looked up the closest church service that week and I went. And let me tell you it is a completely different feeling when you reach rock bottom and go by yourself to a church gasping for air then when your mom makes you go on the holidays.

On my walk there I thought who am I to be running to God now? I have not been the person He intended for me to be, I haven't been to church in forever. I felt like I had failed him a thousand times. I was ashamed to be asking for help now.

And let me tell you, Our God Is A Faithful God.

As I sat down in that pew by myself, on rock bottom. God talked right to me.

The preacher began, "Well I had a sermon we were supposed to talk about today, but I'm not sure if there is something on my heart or God is talking right through me, but I have a feeling we need to talk about anxiety."

My jaw was on the floor. And for that next hour God sent me a comfort I could not find anywhere else.

It wasn't in my family,

Or my friends,

Or my boyfriend.

It was through him when I finally found my peace of mind.

That was my resurrection.

For anyone that feels like their struggling and life is too much for them, financially, physically, or mentally. I encourage you to read the scripture that God sent to me during that one service, Matthew 6:25-34.