My friend reminded me today just how close we are to graduation. We'll be seniors in college and will soon have to figure out what we're doing with the rest of our lives, or at least what we'll be doing for the next few years. I'm not going to lie, this is a terrifying thought.
When you're a kid, you always dream of being this or that. I wanted to be an actress or a singer, then I wanted to work behind the scenes of movies, then I wanted to own my own bakery, and now? Now that it's less than a year away? I have no idea.
I ended up choosing to study business at a four-year college after the whole performing arts thing didn't really work out. I don't regret that decision, but now I'm left not knowing what to do. The furthest I've gotten is knowing what I don't want to do, which I guess is a good start.
Funnily enough, I already have such concrete ideas about what I want my wedding dress to look like. It'll likely change, as it already has from when I was younger, but some aspects have stayed constant. I am currently single, currently not looking for any type of relationship. I am graduating in less than a year. Think I've got my priorities mixed up? Ohhhh yeah.
How is it that I can decide on something so trivial, but when it comes to what I want to do, where I want to work for possibly the rest of my life, I'm so indecisive?
Yeah, I'll be graduating college when I'm twenty-one, but that doesn't mean I have to have everything all figured out. I'll still be so young. I'll still have so much time to try things out and see where life takes me.
I'm trying not to stress too much about it, and if you find yourself in a similar situation to mine, don't freak out. Try to relax. As one of my favorite movies says, "everything happens." Everything will happen as it needs to, so just take life one day at a time and see where that leads you.
