We wanted more
We wanted to escape our parents and be on our own
We didn't want to explain ourselves
Where we were going
How long we'd be there
And whether or not we'd walk home alone
We wanted more distance
And they wanted more love
With every step they took toward us
We took three away
We had given too much
And we needed it all back
State lines were the barriers that kept us sane
The space that we desperately needed
So we wouldn't lose our minds
We try not to think about that too much
On the off chance that we might be wrong
Maybe we shouldn't be putting ourselves first
Maybe we should remember where we came from
We feel terrible
Every now and then
But then we remember why we felt so miserable in the first place
We tell ourselves that it isn't our fault
But we don't believe it
We just want to belong
But we know that we never will
Not there
Should we choose happiness
Or compliance
Cover up the mirror
And think of the actress
In the flowing white dress
About to go on stage
She wants it to feel the way that it used to
She knows that everyone is watching her
But she doesn't care
They want her to think about what she has done
How badly she has embarrassed everyone around her
And how terrible it is that she isn't giving it a second thought
But she sits in the dark
Alone
Thinking only of that
Every
Single
Night
She's sick of it
And they're just getting started
She can't stop thinking about
Being back there
Eyes closed
Lights off
Fan spinning
Trying to breath in time
But it only makes it worse
Hang tight, baby girl
We'll be there soon
