Nothing annoys me more than finally coming to the realization that I wasted my time and effort on a person that had no intention of reciprocating those things. If you aren't feeling the relationship, whether it be a friendship or something more, just let me know. Honestly, I'll probably respect you pretty highly for having the nerve to straight up tell me that instead of just leading me on and making me feel like I actually meant something to you.
I'm a very busy person, between my classes, homework, late night dance parties, and naps, I barely have enough time to think, let alone invest very valuable resources that I won't ever get back. For someone with a very strict schedule from day to day, it's difficult to allot any substantial amount of time to one specific person so if I do that for you, I really need you to not make me regret it. It's pretty simple and personally, I feel like it might actually count as being an all around decent human being: just don't waste my time.
Although it's definitely not one of my favorite past-times, messing with my schedule is something that I can forgive pretty easily but if you let me get my emotions involved, that's a whole different story. As much as it sucks sometimes, I'm a very sensitive person and it doesn't take long for me to get attached to someone but it takes me forever to get myself back together after they just up and decide that I'm no longer worth their time. Don't get me wrong, I'm pretty good at building myself back up, but ya know, sometimes you just need some time to feel sorry for yourself... Or maybe just be annoyed with yourself for letting it happen, again. It takes so long to convince myself that your lack of interest doesn't make me any less valuable and that not having me in your life is nothing more than your loss so if you really want to get technical, letting me get attached and then dropping me like a hot potato is also wasting my time, and that doesn't make me very happy.
As a teenage girl, it isn't surprising that I don't always have the highest level of self-confidence. Sometimes I know that I am a prize to be won, sometimes I'm just in a mood and it feels like the entire world is against me. I do not need yet another reason to question myself, please don't give me one. Don't allow me to get invested in you and our relationship, if you're just going to end it. I'm usually pretty good about deciding whether or not I should trust a person, but if I feel confident that you won't hurt me and you mess that up, everything changes and I'll make you work so much harder just to prove yourself before I trust you again. However, this won't even happen before I overthink and consider every possible reason behind how I let you do something like that to me. I'll put the blame on myself and I'll make myself sick wondering what I did so wrong that you felt that you should break my trust. Coincidentally, wasting my time is a great way to make this happen.
I suppose what I'm trying to say is that I'm a very genuine person and because of that, I expect everyone that I choose to invest my time in, to also be just as genuine. If you can't fulfill those expectations, be honest about it. Tell me, to my face. Don't beat around the bush. Don't try to lie just to spare my feelings; I would much rather be hurt by the truth than be consoled by a lie. A person only has so much time in their life, I waste enough of that myself and I really do not need anyone else's help doing it.
