Joy and laughter we shared,

Feelings and emotions we have expressed...

But if you really cared,

When it came to us why second guess?

Is it because I was different from the rest,

You have been with?

Or was it because you were not impressed,

With whom I really am?

Though I am not the cutest guy,

The apple of your eye,

Too poor to afford and buy,

The things you wanted...

I still tried,

To satisfy your every need...

However, were we letting time pass us by?

Or investing it?

My heart, were you testing it?

If so, did I pass or fail?

My feelings I have deeply fell,

Into...

Drunken as I write this poem..

Trying to figure out the answer to a few questions...

Like, did you have other options or was I your only suggestion?

Was it real or another one of life hard lessons?

Were you a curse or a blessing?

Now your thoughts have mines second guessing...

Were you putting up a front?

During those past six months...

Knowing what we had,

Was going to fade away...

See, I still have feelings for you...

You calm you were too dumb,

I was too smart,

You were too vulnerable,

For me to have your heart...

But was it an excuse?

Because you already belonged to someone else...

Someone who attracted you more,

Who you simply adore,

Was I really your number one?

Or was I your number four?

As these words cut deep into the core,

With my feelings poured onto the floor,

With nothing else to give...

I hope whoever you are with treats you better than I,

But I just want to know,

Before I depart and go,

Onto the road of loneliness….

Was what we had counterfeit?

Or was it real…