Everyone has dreams. Sometimes I wonder if my dreams are too big. I wonder if what I want in life is something that will always be out of my reach no matter how hard I may try. However, I have to remind myself that the reason I feel that way is because I am comparing my end goals to where I am now, at this moment. So yes, where I am now may make my dreams seem to be a little lofty and out of reach, but I have to remember that there is a long road ahead of me, and depending on what I make of it, I have time to work on getting closer and closer to making my goals reality. Am I happy with where I am at now? Well... I don't know. I am not unhappy, but I do think that I will never be truly happy with where I am at until hopefully the very day I am lying on my death bed. I am, however, happy with the progress I have made. Looking back at where I have started, I have come a long way, and for that I am thankful.

Sometimes, my dreams also scare me. This goes along with what I classify as "feeling small". There are times when it dawns on me how big this world we live in actually is, and therefore just how tiny I am among it all. It seems easier and more natural to simply hang back in the shadows and in the nice, sheltered world that I have lived so much of my life in. To get to where I want to be, however, to achieve my dreams, I am required to leave those boundaries and put myself in situations that may not always be kind and comfortable. There are good things about this though- about both growing up in a cozy, sheltered world, and in leaving that world. One being that, when leaving that world that I have come to know so well, even when heading out into some place that is not all that much bigger, everything becomes an adventure. Right now I am not completely tossed out into the "real world," but I am at a point where I am figuring things out little by little, and everything is so intriguing. My friends tease me about how I am often in awe of things so commonly taken for granted- one example being the fire escapes that descend down the sides of city buildings. I find them to be absolutely beautiful. And although I have been to cities before and probably have seen fire escapes, there are still some things that go unnoticed until you are surrounded by and experience them every day. Which goes to show that as scary and intimidating as going off into the big world may be, it can all be seen as a big adventure, and there are plenty of good things that can come out of it, no matter how small you may feel.

So here's the thing. Yes, as great as dreams are, they can also be quite scary. Personally, it is the uncertainty of not knowing what is actually going to happen, if everything is going to work out how I would like it to, or wondering whether or not I will actually be able to achieve the dream at all. You really don't know, and there is no way you truly can until... well... you're living your dream. It's something I have not quite figured out how to handle just yet. Sometimes I still wonder if I should stop working to achieve certain dreams because of the fact that they might be "too big," for someone who sometimes feels so small. However, wondering will never get me anywhere. Questioning whether or not I am going to be able to achieve my dreams is never going to help me achieve my dreams. I just have to accept that with dreaming comes uncertainty, but you have to trust that things work out, and either they will, or there will be a life will bring you to a new path with new dreams, and new opportunities.